The teenager caught her erstwhile-depressed mother humming, talking about the blue sky, making banana-strawberry smoothies, and offering to braid the daughter’s hair.
Waldman has a new memoir: "A Really Good Day: How Microdosing Made a Mega Difference in My Mood, My Marriage, and My Life."
From the NYT article:
The idea behind microdosing is to take regular “sub-perceptual” doses of hallucinogens (in the case of LSD, about 10 micrograms, roughly one-tenth of a standard recreational dose) once every four days. The levels ingested are intended to be too small to inspire Technicolor hallucinations, but large enough to enhance a sense of mental flow.No hallucinations? I'm out. I'm not in the market for enhanced mental flow — or a mere sense thereof. Do you lack "mental flow"?
Anyway, the stuff is illegal. And, by the way, Waldman is/was a lawyer. She went to Harvard Law School with Barack Obama. And she worked as a public defender, so she has an enhanced sense of the reality of criminal prosecution. How does she get to be an out-and-proud LSD user?
The problem, however, was procuring the LSD. Initial, furtive inquiries among New Age friends in Berkeley proved fruitless.Well, good luck to her — with the depression and the teenage kids who know she's "on acid" and the memoir and the government and maintaining the supply after she's drink-me'd all that's in the tiny cobalt-blue bottle.
Then, unexpectedly, a mysterious friend of a friend reached out — a man who said he was a professor who was nearing the end of his life and no longer had use for his remaining LSD. A short time later, a brown-paper package arrived from “Lewis Carroll.” It contained a tiny cobalt-blue bottle.
If we could all get access to microdosing, what would stop us from moving above the "sub-perceptual" level. How can the government deny us perception?
The NYT tells us that the microdose — 10 microgram — is "roughly one-tenth of a standard recreational dose." I found a Reddit discussion detailing the steps up to and beyond that standard. I'm linking to it not as medical information to be relied upon, but to get you to think about the perceptions the government denies us. Excerpts:
60 mics... Lights are brighter, colors are slightly enhanced and some after imaging and trails....I love the "all different cultures." I think this means that your blank white wall looks like a moving version of one of those Indian bedspreads you used to buy at Pier 1.
90 mics- Bright colors, surfaces start to move, warp or breathe slightly.... You start to think more.... continual distractive thought patterns...
110 mics... "Ripples" over laying your field of vision. Patterns from all different cultures seen on walls, surfaces, faces etc...
200 mics... Beautiful colors are everywhere... Life changing, spiritual experiences or realization can happen....I had to look up "Mandelbrots." I found this:
400 mics... Time distortions and moments of eternity...
500 mics... objects morphing into other objects... Destruction or multiple splitting of the ego. (Things start talking to you, or you find that you are feeling contradictory things simultaneously)... Time becomes meaningless.... Your vision is almost completely enveloped by fractal patterns, and if you were to stare at some pavement or something, it looks like you can see to the end of eternity. Miles and miles of visual depth. There are many subtypes of these: Mandelbrots, spirals, wave interference patterns, etc....
You can stop that video whenever you like. Imagine being forced to watch it for hours. And yet, is it not worse to be forced not to watch it, if that's what you'd like to see?
Back to the upping doses:
1000 mics... You basically cant see anything but visuals, your mind as a whole is infinitely connected with its self and your external environment.... It would scare most people shitless....
1500 mics... You can no longer really see your own hand in front of your face. Your cognition and vision are both bathed in the same light.... You will loose [sic] your ego, but you will meet many organizers of human cognition in this egoless place. They are much smarter than human beings. "they" *are self conscious neurology. They are the mathematicians behind consciousness and even the visuals themselves. Total loss of visual connection with reality. The senses cease to function in the normal way. Total loss of ego. Merging with space, other objects, or the universe. The loss of reality becomes so severe that it defies explanation. The earlier levels are relatively easy to explain in terms of measureable changes in perception and thought patterns. This level is different in that the actual universe within which things are normally perceived, ceases to exist! Satorienlightenment (and other such labels).