From "My Penis, Myself/I didn’t need a penis to be a man. But I needed one to be me" by Gabriel Mac (New York Magazine).
December 20, 2021
"I’m asexual (yes, you can be asexual and have a boyfriend), and what that means for me is my penis was just for me."
"So what was even the point of having a lot of it? Was I greedy? Crazy? Weeks before my procedure, I got a block of clay and sat meditating and molding by feel, letting my body answer. The resulting phallus was the exact size I’d been requesting. For days, I lay on the floor on and off in the sunlight coming into my living room, asking my ancestors and transcestors for guidance. Some people might kill for this kind of access and choice. Certainly many, many, many, many people have died in the fight for it. One night, I woke up from a dead sleep, and all I heard was: Take the big dick.
So I did.
And it was perfect.... One of my surgeons asked me at some point if I’d want to follow up later with surgical girth reduction in case this here wondrous member we had conjured from fucking nothing into warm, space-displacing reality wasn’t yet the fit that would stop the deafening five-alarm bereavement scream that had ricocheted around my insides incessantly since birth.
But the screaming had stopped...."
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"I woke up from a dead sleep and all I heard..." and then she obeyed that. Further evidence that transgenderism is largely a mystical experience.
Why do some people think we want to hear about their mental illness?
Biggus Dickus
Hey Mac -- You still don't have a penis.
An artificially constructed facsimile of a thing is not the thing itself. It is a fantasy. Just as if you had gotten a boob job -- the traditional kind -- you wouldn't really have bigger breasts, you just have breasts filled with some artificial substance.
Severe, severe case of mental illness. These people need help.
Biggus Dickus redivivus, with even more farce!
How wonderful. The Universe now advises on schlongs .
Thanks for sharing.
Gaberial Mac is mentally ill and, apparently, health insurance makes this all possible.
Given what my health insurance company paid last year for my cancer treatment and cataract eye surgery, this person's health insurer has certainly paid well over $1m.
okay, this will sound like me Going Out On a Limb....But
There is a Word, that describes people that think things like:
"(yes, you can be asexual and have a boyfriend)"
"asking my ancestors and transcestors for guidance. "
" One night, I woke up from a dead sleep, and all I heard was: Take the big dick."
" Growing up without one, I’d thought or maybe convinced myself that mine would grow in later"
"when I see a woman in tight pants, I often instinctively think, Where is her penis?"
"my period at 12 aptly, agonizingly bled to death that increasingly implausible dream"
And that word is; FUCKING BATSHIT PSYCHO CRAZY
I'm not (necessarily) saying that a Lobotomy is warranted... I'm just saying: Isn't It?
CBS reporting: Max Johnson transferring to Texas A&M. Coach Fisher can dream big too.
Articles I'm not going to read. I have a certain amount of lurid curiosity about the subject, but it's much less than my lurid curiosity about the adventures of a stacked blonde in Hollywood.
And HERE is the source of the craziness... RIGHT HERE
and my insurance company... for the necessary authorizations
if these sick fucks had to PAY for their self mutilations THEMSELVES.... Would ANY go through it?
Seriously, What does it COST to have a doctor sew a giant fake penis onto a little girl?
$10,000?
$100,000?
One thing is For Sure; the Doctors are Making MONEY on this, And that money comes from insurance
Maybe consciousness is sabotaging? the throne the phallus has occupied since our beginning, given how it's mostly regarded as a pleasure tool now. Not needed for reproduction.
"If your right eye causes you to stumble, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell." Mathew 5:29
Can "throw it away" be interpreted as interchangeable with "put it on"?
This trans person described his/her hell 🤷♂️
I was getting lost in the gender chronology, until i kind of realize, it doesn't matter. Maybe that what Asexsual means. No need to get stuck on what came first, the chicken or the egg.
This was a good find btw. If you can put your plight into words, you are a long way towards getting something if not everything you want.
asking my ancestors and transcestors for guidance
I once got half-way through Carlos Castenda's "A Separate Reality, and then I realized it was gibberish.
Can't people just keep their personal issues to themselves?
That person has no idea what a man is.
As for consulting his ancestors, had he gotten through, they'd all be flogging themselves in perpetuity for not doing some preventative sterilization on their own part.
Mental illness is nothing to laugh at. Or brag about.
It's a geek show.
They are gawking and laughing, and NY Magazine is selling tickets.
Meanwhile anyone with a remaining soul is asking, "Why won't somebody help her?"
Do these poor creatures have nothing else to obsess about? And do the reporters and their editors have nothing else to write about?
This is sick.
Penis envy is a real thing-
What a dick
addadicktome.
"Certainly many, many, many, many people have died in the fight for it. "
How many? FOUR many.
I must be a horrible person for immediately thinking of the "Many Bothans died to bring us this information" scene from the original Star Wars, the biggest laugh line in the entire movie franchise.
I just realized where that "king" line came from. Seinfeld, The Bet.
Christ on a cracker! When are we finally going to label this as a debilitating mental illness? I'm talking about reopening those old brick buildings on the edge of town and corralling these weirdos back onto the wards sitting in the sun room wearing white jackets while playing dominoes. "Hi, my name is Amanda, and I want to mold myself a big cock". "Hi, Amanda, my name is Jeff and I like to eat prime cuts of those folks I kill. Can I have a bite of your fine clay cock?" "No, Jeff. It's MINE!"
- Krumhorn
(my preferred adjectives: brilliant/awesome)
I hope stuff like this keeps getting published so that the public will one day realize that people like this are absolutely mad.
"Another day, I lay on a couch staring into a shaft of sunlight coming through a window"
Oh for God's sake...
Female with a trans/homosexual penis fetish. John Hopkins demonstrated conclusively that surgical, medical, and psychiatric therapy it is not a resolution but avoidance of underlying issues. Abstention is not asexual but a choice, the first choice.
. What kind of crap is in New York Magazine? I’m sitting here amazed at the insanity this person with the new big dick is dealing with. He is is need of some serious psychiatric help. No size dick is going to help this poor soul. He says that “I needed one to be me.” So, now you are a big dick. And why does New York Magazine think this is something it’s readers need to know? For sure, this is an all time low, even for New York Magazine. If the article is meant to get attention in order to boost its circulation….not such a good idea. There are plenty of porno mags that perverts can buy to get their thrills.
Gabriel Mac should have studied philosophy.
Then he might have dealt with his life's dissatisfactions more simply.
I wonder if they also let you choose the color.
If there was anything I had learned in transitioning, it was that what was right for me was rarely what, according to my patriarchal, heterosexist, racist, capitalist acculturation, “made sense” — which, obviously, could only be to live as a sexually available cute-lady vessel capable of carrying white babies.
I bet in Cuba or in the old Soviet Union, or in communist China, this person would have been allowed to be the person this person wanted to be so badly! I bet the commies wouldn't have sneered at the idea of this person wanting a huge dick, who doesn't? Maybe it's the ultimate proof it really was a case of man in a woman's body.
Mostly, I want the three minutes back that I spent looking for some value in it in reading this. It's like the old joke about taking a sip from a spittoon on a bet, and then having to swallow the whole thing because it was all one string...
Ahhh this one, she has a history.
Developing...
My Penis, Myself
I was getting worried that The Hubling or Nemesis might actually be the last Philip Roth novel.
Not even going to click the link. What’s posted is enough to generate visceral disgust.
"I’m asexual (yes, you can be asexual and have a boyfriend)
No, you're a female who wants to have a dick.
And no, if you're not interested in physical intimacy, you do not have a "boyfriend", you have a guy you hang out with
Why is it that we’ve come to the point where we have to define ourselves by how we reach orgasm? What ever happened to character?
Where to start?
What's so funny about Biggus Dickus?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kx_G2a2hL6U
Bigger is the American way. Always. You want littler? Go to Japan. You want nuanced? Go to, uh, Japan again. You want intricate? Go to, I don't know, somewhere in Europe or something.
You want bigger? Come to America. Bigger isn't necessarily better but it's how we got ... wait for it ... wait for it ...
Biden. A bigger a-hole we have not seen.
[Full disclosure: I don't like Biden.]
I dunno. He's going nuts (excuse the pun!) over his new penis, but what's he going to do about the wide pelvic structure that is unmistakably female? Look at his photo. He's got such an hourglass figure that you ask yourself: What happened to the breasts? Plus, he needs some facial reconstruction to get rid of the girly jawline.
To be blunt, the author of this article is not mentally stable. The fact that this surgical mutilation was encouraged and then performed is both saddening and maddening. To top it off, as a medical scientist, it wasn’t even a very interesting article.
Like so many boys back then, I would not have survived the 1970s without my well-thumbed copy of the Boston Men's Health Book Collective's iconic Our Penises Ourselves.
If you get to know people over a long period of time they all have this mentally disturbed insanity in the back of their mind. One of the great benefits of friendship, marriage, family is to persuade those you love to not give in to that background radiation of insanity.
Go big or go home.
I am glad that I am satisfied with the gender I was assigned at birth. I read this article and I read an earlier article about the multiple surgeries that Jazz has undergone to transition to male and I cannot understand being so unhappy that I would voluntarily submit to this type of mutilation. It must be horrible.
What is it that attracts our professor to these articles?
Treating the mental ill by indulging their fantasies is not leading us a good society whether it's adding or subtracting sexual characteristics or allowing them to live on the streets and self medicate.
I favor the approach suggested by commenter Mike Sylvester. Lots of us have hangups and dissatisfactions and part of living is learning to overcome and accept who we are.
Given that I consulted psychics about aspects of myself which I found inscrutable, I probably would have used that opportunity to ask the psychic why I was so hung up about not having a penis. For example, did this person suffer a traumatic injury in a past lifetime where he lost his penis? And having that knowledge she could then work through the trauma psychologically with some therapist, probably a hypnotherapist doing deep regression. Cycling through different lives as a man and a woman helps people to overcome that ignorant identification with gender or the body. It's kind of like what happens if a person loses a limb or the use of their limbs and has to accept the reality that they aren't only their physical body in order for them to be able to go on an live a happy and productive life. There is a part of us that is immaterial, even animals. You know that if you are with someone or a pet who has passed.
In Gabriel Mac's case, I can't say what is happening but I feel sorry for that person and the physical mutilation and psychological dis-ease they have endured. The fact that he mentioned that he consulted a psychic and were told he was a priestess in a previous life, and nothing more about that tells me that his understanding of the whole matter of consciousness is superficial. Taking a philosophical or spiritual approach imo could have been a lot easier and more beneficial. I get "tranphobed" for having that opinion though.
The fact that there are so many medical professionals now able and willing to experiment and practice their surgery skills on constructing penises should be of some reassurance for biological males who have suffered or will suffer the loss of a penis because of injury or disease. I have read about soldiers whose biggest fear is losing their penis. They'd rather die or lose arms and legs. You all should probably thank all those transmales who are willing to undergo these procedures, regardless of the nuttiness of it all.
My oldest daughter bought my youngest daughter a sweatshirt/hoodie the says in small print: I am unwell
It’s a youtuber, I think. They watch- so I found it and watched: it’s filth.
This person is unwell. Progressives are ruining so many things- defund the police, segregation is power- trans is validation…
Where are their Guardian Angels whispering truth from the right shoulders? Prayer is the only weapon…
This woman needs serious psychiatric help but all she is offered is surgical mutilation.
Supermarket tabloids used to give the mentally ill women 5 minutes of fame for undergoing the knife for the biggest breasts they could show off.
Now a woman can get 15 minutes in The New York zine for having some board-certified butcher craft her a penile simulacrum.
P T Barnum was more honest about the "why".
what's he going to do about the wide pelvic structure that is unmistakably female?
Why do anything if others use male pronouns like "he" and thereby accept this person as such?
Did not read the whole thing, but curious if two large testicles and a five gallon scrotum were not also asked for on the menu. Big Jim gonna look kinda lonely without the twins.
Too bad Dr. Brinkley is no longer with us.
Whole thing smells like a spoof article.
@Tom T: I wonder if they also let you choose the color.
Q: What is 9" long, cylindrical, and white?
A: Nothing.
"And that money comes from insurance"
From the premiums all the other insurance-buying folks are paying, anyway...
I did, unfortunately, click through and RTFA. She(?) is seriously one very sick puppy, though she(?) managed to hold on to her(?) vagina.
I am puzzled, though, that she(?) says she's(?) been misgendered, even as recently as the photo shoot for the article. Assuming that she(?) actually now identifies as male, I don't care what her(?) figure or her(?) earrings look like; the ginormous, surpassingly weird beard would have been a clue, yes? However high-pitched the voice.
So I can only assume that hir actual pronouns are ze, &c., and someone screwed up and missed one.
Others above are quite right: This is severe mental illness. But illness we are invited perversely to celebrate rather than wonder at or pity. The Man Who Mistook His Wife For a Hat was a strange and curious case, but we weren't urged to believe that his wife really was a hat.
Gabriel Mac apparently has a long history of attempting to work out his trauma through violent or radical means. This person is profoundly troubled. I hope this latest transformation brings him some peace, but his history suggests otherwise.
https://twitter.com/jessesingal/status/1473018986233311235?t=lWm6noi3-v1Q7H9JmnqblQ&s=19
His personal delusions aside, does our hostess have an "overwrought" tag?
Ho Lee Katz this is bad writing.
you Know when this all started. you Know how we could end all this. you Really Do.
It started when obamacare told insurance co's that they HAD TO pay for it
It'd end if they told insurance co's that they DIDN't have to pay for it
you Know what sort of 11 year old takes 'puberty blockers' without telling their parents
you KNOW what sort of 20 something gets major sex change surgery
people whose insurance pays for it
If someone is THAT SURE, that they need a dick... Let THEM pay for it
If a child is THAT SURE, that they need puberty blockers... Let THEM pay for it
most of them (nearly ALL of them) are going to rethink their plans
I'm surprised how many of the comments there are negative. Thoughtful, but negative. We need to be able to talk about trans, because one side being told to shut up while the other side proceeds to take over that area of the culture doesn't seem healthy. And it isn't.
The part about staging her own rape after being in Haiti is eye-popping. I do agree this person needed help, not a big new dick.
I think the same is probably true about Jazz, who has now gained about 100 pounds as if to find a new way to bury her sexuality. (after having the bottom surgery)
"What is it that attracts our professor to these articles?"
She loves all the comments they elicit. Just do like me and don't comment.
Oh dangit.
For thoughts about sex, gender, and relationships from a different era I present Peggy Lee's 1959 album I Like Men!:
https://www.peggylee.com/discography/i-like-men/
Every song on the album addresses different men with different characteristics. She likes men and being with men but doesn't want to be a man.
Academics: use this as baseline evidence of non-self-conscious sexually reproductive human female characteristics. Discuss the cultural and economic implications of allocating vast resources toward (1) actual reproduction resulting in new babies versus (2) physical modifications that satisfy desires to have a penis. Assess the resulting probabilities of population extinction events. Present the implications for public policy, and how #1 or #2 might be funded for three generations (i.e., 60 years).
"His personal delusions aside, does our hostess have an "overwrought" tag?
Ho Lee Katz this is bad writing."
Like you'd be better if you had a tubesteak fashioned from your own thigh-meat sewn over your god-given privates. I'd like to see how Tolstoy or Hemingway would do in those circumstances.
One night, I woke up from a dead sleep, and all I heard was: Take the big dick. So I did.
Moses and St. Paul had similar experiences.
So did Mohammed and Joseph Smith.
I guess that explains the polygamy thing.
What Richard said.
This is the same person. She had someone rape her, and she wrote about it.
Headline: Journalist Mac McClelland Simulates Own Rape To Combat Her PTSD
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.huffpost.com/entry/journalist-mac-mcclelland-rape-_n_890251/amp
I wonder what the waiting room at the dick-doc's office looks like.
Can you flip through a catalog and find the one that's just right for you? Says here the ideal dick is a combination of length, circumference, and shape that differs from person to person. The "Clinton" strikes some people as louche, but those things are a matter of taste.
Hmmm . . . if I go for the grande size "Great Purple Throbber with Permablue Balls" do I get a cut on the price?
I tried to read the article. It was more horrifying than I could have anticipated. What in the hell is going on in this country that this can be presented as anything other than tragic insanity? Boy, when they move the goalposts, they really don't fuck around. Do they?
This person is still a woman, because she is still acting like one. Men are all about functionality. We have muscles and body hair and yes, penises, not because they look pretty, but because they are useful to us as beings. She doesn't get that. She is still accesorizing to look pretty. In this case, her accessory is a tube of flesh fashioned to look like a dick. "Look how pretty this makes me!" she exclaims to us as she poses. And she literally sings about it! She's Maria from West Side Story! Men do not ever do this.
It would have been cheaper for her to just get her nails done.
Wikipedia won't give us Gabe's birth name, probably for fear people will "deadname" him. I doubt it was Mac. That doesn't sound right either. It reminds me of the quips about people changing their names twice so that they'd have an acceptable answer when asked what their name was before they changed it.
Consider the paradox here. Activists want trans people to talk about their transitions to make transsexuality seem normal, but the people most likely to talk about such things are loopy AF, and confirm all the preconceptions outsiders have about the trans community.
“Days before my penis’s first birthday, the warmth and weight of it lay against my vulva, each supporting the other, holding me.”
I’m made speechless but amused by this person’s observation that, like earthworms, she wants to have it both ways. The ways of gender dysphoria are dark and winding.
Gross and crazy
I wonder how many people who mocked this person on this thread are deeply deeply flawed, in a way that has made them unable to be a friend to someone who needed a friend. And I wonder if they ever think of themselves as harshly as they think of others.
She still doesn't have a dick. Her "penis" will never ejaculate into a vagina. It will never assist in the creation of life. It's a biggish chunk of meat sewn onto the abdomen of a mentally ill woman. All we can hope at this point is that she never has the care of a child given to her and their young malleable mind infested with whatever mental illness she has succumbed to.
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